Something dying inside me

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Like ghosts surrounding me
Daemons running after me
That tiny hope slowly killing me

Protecting myself with a primitive instinct
I'm turning any day to another lonely night
Closing the curtains behind fences of dark knights

Not able to see flowers of spring
No will to see glory of endless seas
Not gonna meet the dawn or see how beautiful she is

All gone when she did come
Nothing will left when she will be gone
World silenced now it feels like i never had anyone

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Love conquers all!

#428

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Love never gone
Hope is lost somehow
Love never came
Dreams for dreamers
Love never waits
Catch me before i fall
Love never calls
Seek or it's too late



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Missing

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One time at dawn
Asked once
Did you missed me

Every time at night
Hoped not to reply
Cause i missed you already



"Death Cab for Cutie - I'll follow you into the dark"

Love of mine someday you'll die
But i'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting the hint of a spark

Söyleyemediklerim

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Majestic Kea in flight, New Zealand

Zamanı tüket
Yalnızlıgı yok et
Bekle o günü toprakla mesk et

Çek içine bir nefes
Kimine zafer kimine heves
Kalsın sevdan bir kafes

Ne ates ne melek
Zihnimde sessiz bir dilek
Bana seni gerek rüya veya gerçek

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M'e & u

In the end a dream love is

Let's stop trying
What's meant to be it will be
Cause we are powerless on acting or reacting

Let's give faith a chance
To make us meet again
Cause we humans incapable of choosing or believing

All means one thing
Love never gonna breathe
Cause darling destiny don't work unless you interfere

On the hook

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Many words said
Countless efforts made
Nothing to be heard
After the sacrifices i made

What i get
You didn't choose me yet
Thanks so much for letting me know
You didn't say to disappear from your life

I'm already yours
What you gonna lose
Let me sit on the bench
If somebody better comes along that's a catch

Hopeless dreams in stressful times
I came to you, i did come right in front of you
And you never took a step towards me
Let's stop the act and face the fact

You didn't want me yesterday
You don't want me now
You won't want me tomorrow
And i won't wait for you to decide anymore

Dreaming

Am i dreaming
An illusion maybe
 A hallucination it must be

Saw her smile
As i'm walking
Suddenly i'm running

Don't care about yesterday, now or tomorrow
Don't care about when, where, how
I'm with her that's all i wanna be

Calm as an ocean in sunset
Happy as a little boy reached dawn again
Don't ever wake me up, let me sleep through this lonely night

Even it's a dream she's all i need
First light in the sky she is
Last star in the sky she is



æ | forever love

#422

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All began as kind and simple
An intriguing obsession love became
Timid and hardly i went
In brave and odd moments i was lost
I turn into a monster that i don't know
I meet once again emptiness where i don't care
So many tears shed through
Nothing happened though
Why did i go to her who knows
Why did it end who cares
It hurts badly now
Love silenced in me somehow

#421

Çileyi çekene
Sevdayı gönlünde biriktirene
Bosa kürek çekene

Bir ada bir liman
Bir köy bir sıgınak
Bir avuç toprak gerek

Yolların sonunda
Kapıların ardında
Rüyalara ramak kala



æ | pax orienta

#420

Yürüyemedigimiz yollar
Sesine hasret anılar
Kayıp bitik bir sevda
Suskun yitik bir seda

Mahkum eder baskasına
Gönülde sade bir dua
Yar etme baskasına
Gönül sus yareni yaralama



æ

#419

I'm nobody that is already somebody for someone
I loved deeply yet loneliness is my destiny
No games get me so far, no lies got me to a nowhere
We are what we are, farther, insecure and gloomy
Still i'm what i am, still you were not the truth i was searching for
I loved her even she could be a lie, cause she was the one, she is the one



i missed you already
M &E

Snowy sky

Long yellow fields of Anatolia
Awaits the princess of Romania
Winter came i didn't change
Spring i'll reach do not ever change
White covers of mountains now a river flowing by
A river becoming an ocean nearby
Clouds as an ocean in the sky
Cycle of nature
Cycle of life
Nothing i can lose my everything is you
My love is forever and it's only for you

#417

Words unsaid matters the most
What we don't have troubles us the most
A pearl hidden behind her eyes
A golden heart glows under her chest
What i am is what she built
What i will be is beyond her will

Written 18/02/2015
Near Adana, Turkey
OMW

#416

Melek yüzlü seytan
Öldür beni
Tüm yigitleri öldürdügün gibi
Tüm sevincleri yıktıgın gibi

Seytan yüzlü melek
Çek git yıkıl karsımdan
Beni benimle bırak digerleri gibi
Beni bensiz bırak kendini sever gibi

Konya, Eregli, Türkiye

On road

Get hit by an arrow today but not hers
Go anywhere today but not where you saw her
It's Valentine's day
It's time to hide from couples madly in love
How can i hide from you
What i see is you no matter where
A girl in the street is it her
A couple sharing a table is it us
In a teardrop breaking my heart
In a raindrop washing up the sky
Slowly i feel again how losing was
Unfortunately the same mistake denying the pain
One must welcome the pain
One must cry without hiding his face

Written in Konya, Selçuk, Turkey
13h00

Gone

Alongside of mountains
Sun tears apart the sky
Clouds beaming up
This world worships The Sun

So young day is
It has much to offer
So old world was
Many lost faith in it

Yet i fight for the last tree
Still i walked through field of roses
Saw the fire burning them all
Able to save one for you

You were gone already
Maybe you were never there
Maybe you were a dream i saw
Maybe you were an angel in my mind

#413

Kapılar kapanınca
Diller susunca
Anlarsın ederimi
Bilirsin kıymetimi

Ellerin baglanınca
Geceden sonra
Dönsen ne fayda
Bilirsin niyetimi

Pesinden kosunca
Bırakmaz zannettin
Vurdugun yüregim
Acımaz sandın

Ask tükenince
Sözler bitince
Kaybettigin bendim
Kaybeden degilim

Higher than the sun

The moment it breaks
The moment i'm broken
I love the flow of energy inside me
I love the power of saying good bye
Feeling of my wings so wide
Feeling of flying away so far
Giving up on someone truly doesn't deserve you
Giving up on love which doesn't match your nature at all
They always appreciate who you are when they lose you
They look back eventually and remember how a real man made them feel

Life goes on
Time moves on
All alone
All as one
United we were
Together we could

Farewell
To the ones we lost
Farewell
To the ones we cared
Farewell
To the one we can't forget

Return

Miles away from here
I return to the land
That created me
There they whispered who i am

Endless yellow fields
Lonely trees
That demolished me
There i became who i am

So many tombs
A freezing cold
That waken me up
There i prayed who i want to be

Lost so many
Not gave up but some
That arisen me
There i found who i should be

No valentine

Ultimate ally i was
Ultimate love you were
I wouldn't hesitate a moment
To spread my wings
To go where i didn't dare with anyone else
You meant the world to me
What you worth was the world itself
You would be where everything began
We would be where everything ends
Why you won't tell me
Why i won't know
All ends now
We are done now
Cry i will until i suffocate
Write i will until i feel empty
Will you mourn after me
Will you know for once really who i was
With you i was all in
Won't able to forget you
With me i must keep the best wound i ever had

Rise Lord Nemesis

Stab my back if you can
Won't seek revenge
Won't forget neither forgive

Thankful you must be
That i wouldn't hit back
You wouldn't able to get up again

Do not love me back
A tea was too much to ask
Don't know what you're missing while running from heartache

Do hurt me
Hit with all you got
I may fall once again but i always rise and fly away

Cliff

May not love me back
But won't find anything faulty behind my back

Never look back
But won't find out if i'm following you back

Don't care what happened you back then
Not responsible i am yet i am the one pushed back

Stop suffering
Stop thinking

I stopped dreaming of you
I stopped being tortured by you

Mistreated many times
Misread many times
You pushed me far enough
And patience has limits enough is enough

no way out

Some battles can't be won
Some hearts meant to stay broken
Sometimes nothing you can do to make it right
Sometimes there's no way out

best

Uncalled for it was
Undeserved the things said
Yet all said
Yet all heard
Ripped my heart off

Build this myself
Insignificant you are
When i demolish what i built
Not beautiful you are
When i won't look the way i did

Problem was always me
Wanting you
If i want no more
Everything will be fine
This is the best for you & me

timeless

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Raining
Like clouds heard what i said
Raining
Like it will never end

Waiting
Under the rain without an umbrella
Waiting
Rain washes everything within me

Reborn
Like a newborn without any knowledge
Reborn
Like a new man wants to be the old me

Saw
You came by running in a hurry
Saw
You came by looking through me

Frozen
In that moment we are
Frozen
 Our hearts within each other



"it's worth the wait even so far away"

Beyond our understanding

Reunited after betrayal
Getting ready for the fight
Victory on the horizon
Souls praying to The God

Returning to the battlefield
Kissed by the lady i love
Victory destined for us
My prayers always with you

Reclaiming what i am
After kissing your forehead
Victory for those who can wait
Path of love i took to reach God

V4VICTORY

M as in E

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Sometimes i feel incapable
Can't describe this feeling
Can't tell how you are

Like no words match your beauty
How one able to see the beam from your eyes
Which words could be enough
I don't know that much of English
I don't know how to in any language
I say your soul is like the sky
No not enough
I say you're an angel without wings

Not fairly enough
Do you know at least how you are
Do you know at least who you are
To me to your friends and to your family
Maybe they know a way to describe you
Hope all know the value of having you
I love you
So many people saying it nowadays to so many people
Do you actually feel it when i said so
Do you really believed how i felt so
Hopefully Eternally Secretly
In a voice heard indistinctly
I love you
I truly love you
With its pain its suffering
With its joy its magic its everything and anything
I do
And no one can ever take that away from me

I'm deaf to non-believers
I do believe in love
That's why i found you
That's why i wont give up on us
That's why i will cry but still i will wait for us to be

#402

Neler vermezdim tek bir sans için
Bir an bir ses ve yalnızlık benim için
Yangın yıkım ve esrarlı gece bizim için

Bu uzun yol tuzaklarla kaplıydı
Sonu imkansızdan öte gibiydi
Inandım inatla tırmandım ve yorulmadım

Tepeden baktıgımda
Manzaran büyüleyiciydi
Malum sen öyleydin

Güzeldin gözlerimden
Güzeldin sözlerinden
Güzeldin bilip bilemediklerinden

Acı kalır

Umut zehirlesir
Tek bir anda her sey kararır

Bir an kalır hatrımda
Elimde bir demet umut
Ararken seni beklerken yalnız seni

My condolences

Rest my heart will
Lose my mind i will
Without her voice
Without her smile
Not gonna be the same
Not gonna be real
Gone she is
Gone without a glance back
Left out with pain i am
Left out with memories i am
Nicest dream she was
Nicest nightmare she is
♥
Forever love

PS: it's ok - i'm ok

Another dream

I lost you
You might lose your way
I loved you
Yet you may loved this way better
I freed you

You won't ever coming back
I'm waiting you
You  shouldn't wait for the man can't be moved
I feel you
You may not feel what i've felt

That's what i feel
That's what i will get
Farewell to another dream

Wake up
Wake up and get up now
It was just a nice dream you've seen


400th post
Still writing with passion
Still waiting without patience
#400paxOrienta

for real

Nearer the end
Not gonna be a happy end
Cause this is no film and it hurts for real

 Not force anyone to love
Not able to convince the one
Cause this is no story and it ends for real

Longer the night
Farther the dream
Cause this is no legend and it keeps happening for real

Ya sus

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Mirastır gözyası
Acıdır ruha hem ates hem su
Bizi biz yapan yoklugunuz

Dinsin dinmesin gözyası
Olgunlastırır asıgı türlü acı
Yokluk yol vere yol göstere

Gözlerimiz kurumadıkça
Acı dinmedikçe
Yol bitmedikçe

Asıga dillendirmek düser
Asıga daglara haykırmak düser
Asıga yıldızlara agıt yakmak düser

Gözler karardı yarab
Acı bitsin yarab
Yol bitsin yarab

#397

Stars align
Universe is mine
Sky as an ocean
Stars like diamonds in the sky
I seek only you
You're the sun make stars disappear
When you're gone they hardly appear

The Sun enlighten me
The Sun rise for me

When she comes
When she shines
No wrongs
No wars

My only hope to become the one
My survival depends on what i become
My light holds on until she become the one
 
Rise above all
Shine for us all
You're the hope
You're the light
Do what you must
Do what's right

all we have

after rain fell
after clouds collided
before dawn meet me
before night don't leave me
in thunderstorms give your hand to me
in sandstorms i'll kiss the desert rose
tomorrow is uncertain
tomorrow is still all we have

Vazgeçmem ölesiye

"Reason is powerless in the expression of love" -Rumi

Daralan zamanda
Küçülen askım olsa

Yazar mıydım
Çizer miydim

Sevdim delicesine
Vazgeçmem ölesiye

Derdin dermanı
Sonbaharın ilk düsen yapragı

Kavusamadıkça yaram kanadıkça
Ilkbaharın son gülücesine

Sevildin gönülden
Vazgeçmem ölesiye

Yanındayım son nefesimde
Sen merak etme

Bil ki aska inanmayan kavusamaz layık olana
Beklemek seni degerli bin gülden binbir laleden

Seviyorum umarsızca
Vazgeçmem ölesiye



forever love

for what's worth

Whistles blown
Game over who won
I didn't you neither
We played without a reason
No glory with no audience at all
Why someone needed to win this one
Worth playing while cheering "for the win"
Why love needed to win
Why love tell me we didn't win
You meant the world to me
What you worth was the world
I'm lost under which shadow i will go
I'm lost which nightmare i will fight
Don't let me go
Don't let me fight
Is it really over?
Tell me love is it over?
With or without you love is forever

Stay as you are

No Name Street artist
In a side street of Istiklal, Taksim, Istanbul, Turkey
Photo from me

Anılar eskir sandım
Pesimi bırakır sandım
Yeni eskidikçe solar
Eski yenilendikçe filizlenir
Acı bitmez kıs yeniden gelir
Acı dinmez yaz yeniden ısıldar
Mevsimi ayı mı var askın
Zamanı bitimi var askın
Öyle sandım
Böylesine bir acıyı kaderim saydım

for M

So close to the end of line
Are we through or still in the line
Hard to accept we were the impossible
What you feel my love is it still cold
I don't know really
I can't guess really
What we had somehow imaginary
What we hold on a tiny hope only
What we expect at least a small victory
What we are now a legend for eternity

Written 31January 2016
14:36

#391

At once swords down
At once fight is over

No more i can try
No more i can pray

Living has no more joy
A dead like earthling walks

At once fractured all over
At once arrows hit twice

No more i can eat
No more i can sleep

Loving has only pain
A living like dead falls

#390

I was up for mood swings
I was ready for anything but this
Same words i know
Same tone of voice maybe
Nevertheless broken my heart was
Then again broken my soul was
Too much burden i carry for both of us
Too much pressure i put for both of us
I failed and i'm sorry about this
I failed and words are unnecessary about this
It should have been simpler it was once
It should have been harder but not that way i suppose
All gone
All lost
A storm it was called love
A breakdown it is now called she's gone

#389

Maybe i was like another leave passing by
Maybe i was like a leave falling by
On you
In front of you
And you didn't notice
And you didn't pay attention to the difference
I feel despair
I fell into despair
What if all my efforts were for vain
And what if all i did was caused me pain
No answers yet
No way out yet
We existed once
Or i imagined us as one

#388

Like they say
There's a fool in every wise man
Like they say
Love makes you do crazy things

Maybe i was a fool
Maybe i was crazy
Still i wish to be your fool
Still i'd like to stay crazy for you

Trick

Bazen bırakıp gitmeyi
Geri döner mi diye köseme çekilmeyi
Yürümektense ona dogru yerimde durmayı
Gelir mi diye sessizce beklemeyi

Biliyordum ki bırakamazdım

Arkasına dönmezdi bakmazdı bekleyemezdim
Gelmezdi gelmedi bir adım dahi gelemedi belki kimbilir
Senin kalbini kıranın yükünü ben çektim ya benimkini kim... kimse...
Kimbilir



Yet she's beautiful a woman can ever be
Is she or she made my world beautiful ever has been?
I don't know I don't mind and I don't care

Forever Love
♥
Mon ange

Silent

Silent night peaceful it was

Like i saw you the very first time

Silent day glorious it is

Like i see you unexpectedly in another timeline

Funny how things doesn't work out

Funny how i'm still in love

You only you who i would go out
You only you who i'll write my only love

Not giving up on us!

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After all what's gonna last
What's gonna left in our last breathe
One song remind me of you
Or one blurry image of you

If it was just my imagination then do we have still time
It was maybe another impossible wish of mine
You will decide to give me another chance
Or you will forget me day by day

I don't need to change
I will wait you forever
I hope you will never change
I've said before my love is forever

Waiting to see Mona Lisa
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Ter ve gözyası

Yalnızlık mutlak
Savastıgım da muhakkak

Pisman ve yenik
Gözyaslarıyla bitik
Hayalleri yanarken gördük
Biz asksız ve askla bittik

Yenilgi mutlak
Yara dermansız muhakkak

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#383

What she says...

Change

Believe in change
Hold that thought and let it rain
If you believe it too we may change
Doing what you do is already giving you pain
Only together we can break the chains
Accepting as it is made them gain
Stand together feel the thrill of chase
It's gonna be alright cause nothing for vain
Decide who's gonna last and who's gonna win the race

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