Alacakaranlık / Twilight

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Yeni gün doğacak diye

Ne günüm gece, ne gecem gün

Her şey senden sonra, senden önce

#716 | pax

Night whispering in my ear

A new day on his way

Neither my night is day nor my day is night

Everything defined as after and before you

#716 | Translated from Turkish

Tears in the rain, why mon, why now?

Some days are longer than others

Some dreams last longer in our memories

I've seen you lost, in dark streets with blurry neon lights

I've cried so hard, everybody thought it's raining so hard

Not all what you think of, not you all think of

It was unique, and that's why we lost it

How cruel to think, we never had it?

715# | pa. .ri.nta

Can you feel it? When i cry?

I can still see you in my dreams.

And they mess with my day.

Why? Why we never met?

Did i deserve that?
Apparently that's all i can ever get

#715 | ..x o..e...

Universe, go to your own way!

It rained a lot today.

There were likely 50 tables and many more wet.

I find a dry one, i light a cigarette.

You were on my mind.

And the universe was mocking me.

It had to remind somehow.

Again and again.

I checked there was no marks on other tables.

...

For M reference just look at the table.

#714 | Sorry, no poem today

Bir kere bile

Uzaklaşıyorum fikrinden

Uzaklaşıyorum bedeninden

Nasıl da yakalandım rüyamda

Ve yakınlaştım ruhuna

Yeniden aldın dipsiz girdabına

Girmeksizin senin gamsız kalbine, bir kere bile

Ne bir sezi, ne de bir anı ile

713# | pax orienta

You may do everything for her

Not enough not enough

Unrequited love seemed like forever love

You gave everything you can, still worthless you are

713# | pax orienta

What they call, facing the reality

To understand how life is meaningless

You gotta empty your life once in a while

To get the idea of how insignificant you are

You gotta love someone so hard

Don't wanna be a star in this life, you are not

Dark matter has a lot more to offer than sparkling stardust

#712 | pax orienta

M: Une blessure d'amour

Keeping your wound closer to mine

Bleeds and heals at the same time

Brave enough to shed tears?

Brave enough to witness?

Everything has a reason, i don't wanna know, don't wanna know

This time, you are gonna only be a dream i saw, i see, i can't get rid of

#711

. | pax orienta

for the M reference in the music video jump to 1:20

Autumn

Autumn is already here 

I just didn't know, yellow leaves everywhere

 You stepped, crushed every leave already dead

 You always knew where to hit when

#710

. | pax orienta

#709

Gönül anlamasa da, isyan etmedi

Allah kısmet etti, aşk bitti

. | pax orienta

#709

Taken from ASOT 767

Senseless

You can't perceive the things i've faced

Your heart won't accept, your mind not able to imagine

How, how can you know? It was my life that i risked

And no one, no one will make you feel like i did

No one!

Yet, just a wind on your face i am

Still just a ghost in your room

Insignificant, worthless, en bref, nothing at all

Life goes on

. | pax orienta

#708

Post-Forever

Wanna be a shadow in the streets

My heart is no longer beating

Silence comes with a price, i'm uneasy

My mind is free, still my heart aching

You hurt something deep inside, bleeding cruelty

My unnoticeable wounds never recovering

#707

Perfect Guy

Everyone may choose to be somebody for someone

But i chose to be the perfect guy for someone

Once i am, i can't be the same ever again

Once i am broken, i can't be whole again

When you are gone, i'm living without breathing

I'm freezing to death while slowly losing every sense of loving

#706

? | pax orienta

Yenik yersiz değil mi bütün düşler?

Kurtuldum fikrinden diye şükrederken

Bilinçaltım gözlerinle ışıl ışıl söyle neden... neden?

Çare aramadım ki ben seninle çaresizken

Deva aramadım ki ağrılar içime işlerken

Ağrı mı deva yoksa hastalığın kendisi mi?

Aşkım yenik, düşlerimle ölümü bekler

#705

"Tuğba Yurt - İnceden İnceden"

Subliminal

Like you leave my life, like you finally got rid of me 

Now go away from my thoughts

Leave my soul, do not come ever to my dreams

7th - 9th - 11th Casse-toi 

Sors de mes rêves

#704

"Kalbimde kırılmadık yer mi bıraktın?

Yaptığıyla ve söylediği nedense farklı

Masumun ahı aheste aheste alınır

Bırakın kazandım zannetsin zavallı"

"Did you left any piece in my heart unbroken?

Somehow what you said and what you did is different

Innocent's divine revenge is taken step by step

Let the poor thing think she / he won"

Gönülyaşı

Seninle olduğum, sensiz kaldığım kadar

Seni haketttiğim ve seni elde edemediğim gibi

Kayıp, neyi kaybettiğini, neden kaybettiğini bilemeden

İplikteki düğümler kopmuş gibi hiç örülmeden

Bana uzanan ellerin kumlara karışırken

Rüyalarımda ruhun yoklukla boğuşurken

#703

Go away, leave me to myself

Dreaming on, dreams turning into nightmares

Stepping into darkness, come on, wake up from dreams

There's only one truth, nobody wanted to see

Love is a state of insanity, everything exists but purity

Unconditional love you may give, broken hearts you will receive

There is the cliff, you pushed me into, my death is from you

Never ever loved, never ever cared

Always being lied, i, always deceived

Forever love, forever lost, forever alone

Get out of my head, like you got out of my life

Get out of my dreams, like you got out of my thoughts

#702

Rumi #7

"Heart is blind, who cares about the mind? 

Heart fell in love with a rose, it doesn't care about its thorns." 

-Rumi

#701

instagram

#700

Dream of a rose in its perpetual spring

Love is a maybe in its continuous ambiguity

instagram

#699

Uçaklar başka yolların şehirlerine

Gözler kapanınca rüyalarım hep kabuslarınla

#699

Yerle yeksan

Akan gözyaşlarım sanki sana mı dert? Hep bana mı cam kırıkların?

Elini uzatmadan, gözlerine bakmadan, yalan mıydı hep sözlerin?

Neden inandım, neden sevdim, neden hâla? Hâla? Seninim hâla?

Dönsen sevmeyeceğim, ama yine de dön, yalan gerçeğimize yalın bir ihtiyaç!

Hiç mi sevmedin, hiç mi istemedin, bahaneydi kapının ardındaki gülüşün?

Ne sen Tess'din, ne ben Andre olabildim

#698

VEGA

Sonsuza kadar

Yıkımın seni yaratmasını

Ölümün sana can vermesini

Yıkımı, ölümü özlüyorum

Ve sadece seni istiyorum

#697

. | distantia

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Orient nouveau

Love got into my veins

Deception via perception

Got under my skin

Suddenly and slowly

Misty roads leads to a mystic city?

Only fields of ruins with majestic darkened clouds

Not angry cause you never really loved me

Forever broken that you never cared

#696

A State Of Trance Episode 759 Asot Radio Classic

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Keşkesiz pişmanlıklar

Gözlerimde sakin bir yangın

Uçlarıysa hissiz parmaklarımın

Kulaklarım ağrıyor seni düşündükçe

Bedenim yanıyor seni aklımdan sildikçe

Gönlümün ağrısı bedenimi de yanına alsa

Tüm açtırdığın çiçekler ruhumda yanarak yok olsa

Ayrılık ve özgürlük aynı adın ardında

Yanılgı ve yenilgiyse arkamda

... | #695

"Vega , Delinin Yıldızı"

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Self-destruct

Shining jeweleries of the night sinking

At first stars fell to the ocean

Then streams pulled the Moon down

Even the darkest, longest night wouldn't do this, yet you did

You lost it all, you did destroy everything, my heartless queen

. | #694

Gecenin parıldayan mücevherleri batıyor

Once yıldızlar denize düştü teker teker

Sonra akıntılar Ayı içine çekti

En karanlık, en uzun gece bile bunu yapamazdı

Sen her seyini kaybettin, aldırmadan yok ettin, kalpsiz kraliçem benim

"Vega, Delinin Yıldızı"

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Yaranın izi

Geceyle gündüzün usulca karıştığı bir gün

Anılarla hayallerin birbirine geçtiği an

Denizlerin göğe, yağmurun toprağa sızdığı gibi

Unutmayı umduğum yanılgı, bir körlük

Gözlerimde beliren gözlerinle

Zihnimde dönen cevapsız sorularla

Sisin içinde kaybolan gemilerin ışıkları mı

Sisten kurtulamayanların çürümüş parçaları mı

Bilinmezlerin sonunda yenik olasılıklarım

Neden hep yitik rüyalarım

. | #693

"Vega, Delinin Yıldızı"

Nothing lost but a dream of us

Aren't we all deceived with lies after lies

All we want to believe, all we seek

Some sort of relief in this black night

All we wanted was our own fairytale

Our dream that is too good to be perfect

At least we took our chances

We followed our dream to its morning

Nothing like a coward telling i believe in love

We are the fallen, the brave, the idiots, loyal to their own feelings

Not afraid to die, willing to die with agony in our hearts

Just in denial how ideals turn into dust, no purity in our souls

. | #692

"Vega, Delinin Yıldızı, 22 Sept 2017"

"Vega" released its fourth album after 12 years of silence. 

"Delinin Yıldızı" "The star of the crazy one"

Same sound and taste in my ears... Shooting stars! Yayayayaya!

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Zan

Yakınlar kalır uzaklardasansa

Yine elindekiler rüyalardansa

Usta yalanlar gerçeklerinle çarpısırken

Bir tutam kum tanesi kayıp suskun bir dalganın içinde

Zarif ruhun dipsiz bir karanlıgın kalbinde

#691

. | æ

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Onyx

Everybody left a mark after their summer

Every wound healed after my winter

After fire, wounds are over all my face

After rain, i'm drowning in a puddle

Cruel you are, heartless you become

I was just believing in forever love

Why did you left, what you felt

You ought to be all of my seasons in one lifetime

#690

. | m

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M'a cicatrice

A tiny spark in my heart

Your fire in my blood

Flames turned into ashes

You didn't burn out

#689

. | m

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Snowf'ake

Always thought you could turn back

Yet you kept riding always on the wrong lane

While your dreams turned into nightmares

You're lost in your own maze

Your hopes fell into dark one by one

Now you're alone even in the biggest crowd

Behind a screen you're trapped
 Ruins are in everywhere you touched

#688

. | pax orienta

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Alone in the metro

Dots until a word

Drops till an ocean

Be everything till nothing

True love you seek not?

Have no regrets, be the best you ever could been

Walk till your feet bleed
Chase your last hope to its dead end

Not the same story we had, love, dreams, all end

#687

#dreams

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6 AM

Kör bir sadakat

Anlamsız bir delilik

Sevdim görmeksizin

Yetmedi, yettirmedi

Sensiz mutluluktansa seninle ızdıraba

Sevmedin, sevdirmedin ki

#686

A blind loyalty

An unmeaningful madness

Loved without even seeing her

It wasn't enough, she didn't saw that enough

I'd rather be in pain with you, than happiness without

She didn't love, not made possible to be loved

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pax orienta

Clung

A dream of love becomes obsolete

My heart dies broken, lost in deep

You kept dreaming with false hopes you gave to yourself

Words you spill out, none of your promises meant
You never ever wanted anyone

Push me down to stairs, i can't die twice

It was hard for me to see

Yet the reality, you never ever loved me

#685

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As long as i breathe

All began in a core inside my heart

Exploded, enlarged one day at a time

I thought i could pull you in

I dreamed we could end up within

#684

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"The closer i got to you, the more it makes me want you

The closer i got to you, the more my heart needs to have you"

#dedication

Still there's you

Things i don't wanna confess myself

Thoughts of her i can't get rid of

Fragments of a dream in it's dead end

Her silence keeps me fading

There's one reality that i'm hung up

Makes me run away from this city

All by myself, i am dying slowly

Still you belong to my only dream

Still there is you, and you were never here

#683

m | forever alone

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Don't say it!

An uneasy mind under a windy night

Unresolved issues, broken hearts

I need to know, am i the only one lost this battle

Don't you ever think of me, now and then, never?

#682

æ | forever

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Tombstone

Words incomplete

Souls lost their muse

Our hearts in chains

Crying out loud in pain

Give me your hand

Are you happier without me?

While i am living with a big hole inside my chest

#681

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An idiot in love

Losing war off the battlefield

Without even touching your hand
I give all i could and took nothing
Yet my eyes never met yours

What am i missing?

Not your gentle heart
Not the taste of your lips

What am i missing?
Only the dream of you
Only an abstract tomorrow of you and me

Hope hurts more than your goodbye

A promise hurts more than reckless words

An idiot loves more than anyone in the whole world

You said third time is a charm

I let you broke my heart again

You sail on a boat without looking back

I - i the idiot lover, believed again

æ | forever

"i didn't come to find someone, i happened to find you"

#680

Being somebody's angel: The promise

Suffer while you're together
Hurt yourself as much as you can
Touch her when she's with you
Tell her what you think
Scream as you like
That you love her forever
Even if you gave up this love is immortal
One day she will go away, without looking her back
While you don't know it's your last day
Disappear while your eyes in hers

"i became an angel only for the one"

#679

"Birinin meleği olmak, söz"

Acı çek elindeyken

Canını yak alabildiğine

Dokun yanındayken

Söyle dilindeyken

Haykır dilediğince

Seni seviyorum diye ölesiye

Sen pes etsen de bu aşk ölümüne

Bir gün kaçacak elinden, arkasına bakmadan

Son günün olduğunu bilmezken

Kaybol gözlerin gözlerinde

"sadece bir kişi için melek olmayı seçtim"

Original written in Turkish

æ | forever

Glass half full

Sending everyday, every hour
Same letter to an address unknown

Praying everyday, every hour

Same wishes for smaller odds

Accepting the loss step by step
Same sentence of hers in my ears

I want you but it's not possible

Same heartache with a stronger pain
A simple no, not a maybe i get
Same first kiss, only your hand
All i wanted was, you, nothing more

#678

Dreams to Reality

Still in my dreams

Still distant in my own dreams

Playing hide and seek

Playing me, she always hides, never seeks

#677

Lies in the truth

Believe into your own lies

Like i did before

Deceive yourself into something different

I can't anymore

Run away from your feelings

That i never could

Forget me, release everything in your mind

Don't worry
I'll always reside in your heart

#676

Alev alev

Gönülden gönüle giderken

Güzelliğin yüzden yüze değişirken

Tek bir anıya tek bir söze takılı kalmak

Hiç kaybetmemişçesine ağlayıp durmak

Hiç sevmeyecekmiş gibi bir yeminle ısrar ederken

Kaderine razı, aşkın ölümüne yenilerek

#675

The real story

Miles away a broken heart
Inches away a healing touch
If you could break away your chains
I would be waiting, you, under my wings

#674

m | bellum occidentis

Sabır

Sevmekten çok sevilmek gerek belki de

Seveni sevmek, kayıtsızca değer vermemek

Umutsuzca beklemektense gitmeli ruhumdan

Ama nerde?

#673

æ | distantia

Gone silently

Not our days together

Not our little magical moments

I only miss the dream of us

You come home late from work

Me on the door ready with dinner

Our little girl needs help with her homework

Me watching the game with your father
I look at you from the couch

You, the only glow in my life

Let's wander around Old Town

Let's celebrate the day we ran into each other

As long as we were together

The spark in our eyes would last forever

mæ
"Once in a lifetime love"

#672

Duran kalpler

Al bu acıyı içimden

Al götür bu ölü toprağını üzerimden

Hiç karşılaşmamış gibi, her sözünü çiğnemedi mi
Hiç sevmemiş gibi, gönülden söylememiş ki
Yokmuşçasına yokolsun yokluk tek varım olsun



Who is afraid of love?

æ | iN a statE oF trancE

#671

In your dreams

Loved you long enough
Believed your empty words

Not seen much, not lived enough
If you chose an empty heart
Be with it in an empty room
Your hands on your head crying
Desperate to find another miracle happening

#670

æ | bellum occidentis