1990 ea creative 🔹1997 return : reborn 🔹 2001 helios iii 🔹 2006 pax orienta : aetates obscurae 🔹2023 ⩘ panacea : veda : ada : donanma : vefa : kıta : tacenda ⩗

The Bridge Never Crossed


Let me be the flame, i am already burning slightly
You be the ashes, i need something left from you
Our love is the only thing burning slowly
Forgetting your voice while holding a picture of you
Your words in my mind, and my scream
Waiting, not hoping anymore just waiting

#744


Box of mysteries


Before you, dreams were asleep
But now, night is waking up within a morning
Who can tell in this twilight, am i day or night?
It's too early and it's too late
To cry, to hope and love in every minute i take

#743


Dying Sun


On my knees, holding my tears
Hugging a closing door instead of you
To another darkness, i am reaching forth my hands
Prayed to be loved and took a vow to wait
I'll wait, i'll wait for my love till the end of the world

#742
forever

Sleep tight


Isn't this the best time of the day?
When i wake up with you and say good night twice
The truth had told lies to us
But we never gave up
At the crossroads, in a lunatic maze
Over and over again
Didn't we always choose us?

#741

Destination


Piercing the fog, reaching out to new roads
Driving to our home one day
From the nicest holiday
Autumn leaves are blowing away
Isn't the view lovely, mountains covered in green
I am turning down the radio, you're already asleep
We're home, you and i
We're in each others heart, you're in my soul

#740


Ardından


Gece kaldı geriye, bilinmezleriyle
Özlemim, umutlarım, yere basmayan hayallerim seninle
İsminin ardında ruhum kayıp
Sesin, nefesin ömrümde eksik
İçimdeki derin acı, içimdeki yıkıntı
Nereye kaçsam adımları hep peşimde

#739


Au milieu de Mon Esprit


7 am in the morning and i'm still dreaming
feels so much real what i'm seeing
you got my number in your drawer
like my footprints are in your hands
we're in the same airplane 
like my wings in your shoulders
it's in the middle of the night
i'm awakening with darkness deep inside my heart
every dream of you is so distant and upsetting
as it is, as it was all the time

#738
i've said forever there i was beaten


Thanks to my brother for the photo

Henüz


Mavi ışıklar su birikintilerinde yeniden hayat bulurken
Teklikten yalnızlığa gidiyor adımlarım yavaş yavaş
Soluk anıların, parıldayan yüzün hep arkamda
 Boşa dualarım, kopan iplikler birbirine bağlanmadıkça

#737
forever


Sleepy


Questions, i will never have answer to
Possibilities, i could never able to follow
So far away and close to the mind at the same time
In a dream of mine, me, you and your cousin were together
Talked and laughed, at least friends we were, not two people afraid of each other

#736
forever

Ton seul espoir: "Erhan"


Bilinmezlerin fırtınası artık zihninin bir köşesinde
Yağan yağmurlar, teker teker düşen damlalar birikince küçük yüreğinde
Taşan ırmaklar, gözlerinde yaşlar, uzak, kayıp artık o adam
Adım göklerin bile üstünde, cismim yitirilen, biten bir hayalse
Henüz erken yıktığın umidinin sonsuzlukta dirilmesi
An be an yaklaşıyor rüyanın kabuslarınla iç içe geçmesi 

#735

Empty Seats on a Train


A never born child is alive in my mind
A never lived love story is real in my heart
Looking to pictures of us in a dream of mine
Living my pseudo-memories, in my subconscious
You should have seen how beautiful you are, how happy we are
I watered a withered rose with my tears, i believed it was the true one
Even in my dream, i felt you're gonna leave
But in my dream, you survived, you were mine for the first time

#734

"Lies are gone yet Love is forever"


Armin Van Buuren feat. James Newman - Therapy
"I like the video more than the song itself, see ya all"

Mahkum


Senin ayrık yolların
Ne sevgiyle ne hüzünle bitmeyen kelimelerin
Hala düğüm düğüm ölü kalbim
Şükrettiğim bir sona ağlarken, değmeyen bir düşe özlemim
Anlamadığın saf bir aşkaydı ihanetin
Tanıyamadığın bir adama artık sonsuz özlemin
Korkudan titrerken tek umudunu bir kabusa terkettin
Beni özgür bırakırken, sen kendini eşsiz hayalime hapsettin

#733

"Bitti dediğim anda"


pax orienta

La Revedere


Raining from the sky, raining over the clouds
Every drop reaching to her hands, but she won't gonna make it
All the mercy of every possible God is in her heart
She is gifted, she is drown in goodness, after misery in her life
She was lucky than most of us, yet she won't gonna notice
Forever man, taking his time here, standing still, he is in hopeful ruins
She is not gonna make it, she ain't gonna try, she did lose him
Come on, let's go somewhere else, just let it go, let's begin again

#733


Like a Fool


In the same city, same streets you're walking
Tell me, how can you get lost, get lost again?
You're seeing all the faces, hearing all the voices
How can you not see, not hear, how lonely you become
All thoughts lead to someone living in somewhere
On a ferry, seagulls chasing me in the middle of nowhere
Dark, night is dark with the city of all lights
Night is dead in me, i am feeling dead with livings around

#731
"Forever Like A Fool"


Keira Knightley - Begin Again OST - Like A Fool
Thanks for the inspiration

Despair / Umutsuzluk


Aklımda hiçbir şey yokken de varsın
Önümde hiçbir umut yokken de
Anarak seni sensizlikten mi sessizlikten mi kurtuldum?
Ben bu çaresizlikten hep bir çare umdum

#730

While there's nothing on my mind, there is you
When i have nothing to hope for, here you are
Did i get rid of silence or your longing by remembering you
Weird i always find something to hope for in my despair

Thanks for the inspiration
Original poem in Turkish

Forever or a day


The reason no one else can comprehend
Becoming the one and losing to the circumstances that never end
Indulgence of hearing your voice again
Meeting you and seeing through your soul once again
Feels like a good bye instead of a new beginning
On the edge of rebelling to the whole world, that's not our ending!
Approach me a little more, lean towards me
One more time & forever until the end of days
Give me your hand, i wanna kiss you again

#729

"And i  miss you... .. . "


Altüst


Unutuyorum kelimelerin yerlerlerini
Şaşırıyorum ne yaptığımı neden?
Dünyam iki saatte yerle bir olduysa
Sen de yık duvarlarını, elinle ittir tüm engellerini
Zor, zor, çok zor
Bir işkence düşünmesi güzel ihtimalleri
Acı sadece acı, unutmadım eski günleri
Ne garip, kalbim de unutmamış seni
Ellerini, kelimelerini, içinde kaybolduğum gözlerini
Denizler okyanuslara akarken, umutlarım dualarıma karışıyor
Seviyorum, seni istiyorum, mutsuzluk baki olsa gene de senin kalsam
Hayat sonlansın çabucak, umrumda değil, ellerim ellerinde kalsın

#728

"Upside Down"
...
"If my world is upside down after 2 hours"
...
"While seas flowing into oceans, my hopes are mixing with my prayers"
...


Another classic with Denis Kenzo Remix
Enjoy!
"You're the face of summer, you're my day and night"

İçine işleyenler


Her nefesinde adım ata ata
Islak ayaklarını usulca basa basa
Huzur gelecek hayata sondan başa
Kırık kalpler düğüm düğüm örülü şeffaf ipliklerle 
Yıkık hayaller ruhumdan geçip gözlerimde yitmişçesine
Senin ismin, senin hülyan, seninle ölmüşçesine

forever love
#727


"i don't know if i should go or stay
love is terrifying
hurts like hell when you try and fight it
...
inside i'm crying
for the love to set me on fire" 

Hicran


İki aşıkken iki ölüye dönüştük
Ne kaldı geriye?
Sahipsiz anılarımla, havaya karışan sözlerin mi?
Limanda batan gemilerim, kanımda kaybolan hayallerin mi?
İkimizde daha mutluysak, bu senin duansa, boşa çıkmadı mı umutların?
Aşk imkansızdı, sen olanaksız, yine de ben seni fethetmedim mi?
Yeniden, yeniden yenilmeden, uslanmaksızın seni severken

#726

la paix orientale

Dilemna


When rain cool down and storms end
When you fix your life, but you lost the love of your life
You don't know if you're happy cause you are not
You don't know why but in misery and pain you were happy
She was by your side and far away thousand miles

#725


Vega - İsim / Şehir
#Vega
"Unut onu"

Never say never


Wolf became a blue bird only for the one
Devil became an angel just for one
I promised something only to keep
Regretfully i screamed "never give up on love"
With my heart full i was dedicated "never give up on us"
To what end? 
To the end of what's mine and what's me
To the end of dreams and your only hope

#724


A Trance Classic for me
Sophie Ellis Bextor feat. Armin Van Buuren
Mirage
"Not Giving Up On Love"

Surrender


You became the love you seek
While you were after the one you wanna keep
Freezing wind will shatter your heart
While heavy rain melting your fragile soul and mind 
Drop your rifle into the mud, throw your helmet into the ground
Surrender to the impossibilities you both face
You can not go on anymore, just surrender
Running towards to the enemy front in tears
Let your love die, let your love go, just surrender

#723

Love, the downfall of poet's soul

Darude & Ashley Wallbridge feat. Foux - Surrender
Thx for the inspiration

Ruhum


Seni olduğun gibi, acıttığın gibi sevdim
Akan kanlara aldırmadan tuttum ellerini
Yok sayıp benliğimi, teslim olmadım mı gözlerine?
Her şeye rağmen, her defasında kör gibi razı 
Vazgeçmedim, ruhuma aşkım dedim mi bir defa? 
Ruhumdun, bana bir yıldız bağışlarken, tek canımı aldın, gittin sonsuza...


mon âme #722 my soul
Frances - Say it Again

Diary of Winter


Why we suffer, what we had dreamed of anyways?
Her hands made of pearls, her eyes filled with oceans?
How come love drives us to every border and we pass every one of them?
Just to be with her, we are capable to do, give everything
Love... pure, unconditional, dreamy love...
We knock its doors, crushed its walls
Everything is not enough while we were afraid of nothing
We pray endlessly, while this little world, this short life finding its meaning finally
Yet, we don't why, we light a cigarette in the dark, raise a glass
And we say altogether, it wasn't kismet, it wasn't our destiny again and not this time
We cry out loud, we broke others heart, and still lost in misery we are

#721 | ...

Tuğba Yurt - İnceden İnceden (Akustik)


Seriale


Basit bir dizide, klasik bir romanda, tatlı bir aşk filminde
Çiftler mutlu olsunlar, bakışsınlar gizlice
Umarken onların mutluluğunu, hatırımdan sileyim dipsiz yalnızlığımı
En azından ekranlardaki sahte karakterler birbirine kavuşurken
Unutayım seni, senin kalbime kazıdığın derin ve onmaz izi

#720


Bride in black


They say if you lose someone but found yourself that you won
Why am i still in so much pain then?
Why i see you everywhere i look?
Why i let you rule my mind, ruin my heart?
Do you have any idea, how you hurt me?
No, if you had you'd never give up on me
No, if you had you'd let me see you once, let me feel the pain
No, if you had, i'd gifted a real memory, in your arms
The hell i won, my body is screaming and i have no words

#719 | ...



Her şeye rağmen, yine de, hala...


Soğuğun koynunda zikrederken seni
Umudunda ard arda sıralanmış kelimeleri
Çok daha fazlasını, seni hakettiğimi
Huzuru eksilttiğimi ve yine de aşkı istediğimi
Nedenlerimi bildiğim bir savaşta olmazların bana kaybettirdiğini
Usulca yağan yağmurda, yavaş yavaş kararan toprakta kaybolmam
Bir gün kötü günlere, en sonunda kötü sonlara veda etmek isterken
Sonunda sensizliğe, yalnızlığa tamamen teslim olmam
Aşkın tanımıysa Allah'ın anlaması zor adaletine sessizce boyun eğmek

#718 | pax orienta


Istanbul wants to meet you


Running away from ghosts and shadows
Looking the other way yet my brain is full with thoughts of you
Ashamed and confused that i'm still in love with you
All my wishes and desires are conflicting 
Do i want you or i wanna stay away from you
No answers, everywhere is a dead end
It's late at night
All stores are closed and i was gonna buy something for you

#717 | forever
The Newsroom
"McKenzie & Will"