U-Turn

#Forever&Never

Driving
It past midnight
In empty roads
Through the lightened Bosphorus Bridge
I wonder
If there's a u-turn or a dead-end
Thinking about you
With a song not ours
Drinking
My last beer
Smoking
Not first or my last cigarette
I need a u-turn
Or
I'm gonna die in pain
To the ones never met
To the ones never loved or cared
To people ran way without a good-bye
Cheers!

#844

Uzak yakın, var yok artık

En yakınken hala uzaktık ikimize

Kavuşacakken bile ayrılıktı kaderimiz

Gündoğumlarını kovalarken hapsolduğum gecelerde

Hüznün kelime anlamını öğrendim her ikimiz içinde

Her kapı kapalı, hepsinde asma kilitler asılı

Oysa umut ışığını, özledim büyüleyici hayalini

Seni özledim ve usandım senden

Seni sevdim ve gittin bir kelime bile etmeden

Yavaş yavaş atıyorum adımlarımı

Düşüncelerimden kopamıyorum

Zihnim allak bullak, seni hala ama neden seviyorum?

Gönlümde kara bulutlar, damarlarımda zehirli bir kan

Yoğun bir sis zihnimde, artık çıkmaz bir sokağım

Her şeyin ortasında, yıkık evlerin yurdunda

Tanrıya bile sığınamıyorum

#843

High hopes for a good-bye

No more have the things i could run away

Your eyes... our words...

Unable to hold my tears again

Every day we were together i will relive

No one can touch the sky

Impossible to dwell mountains with love

I never learn

Self-destruction of myself

Never worked out

Renewing myself will occur

A guy you met will disappear

Soon very soon

You won't let me say good-bye

And

You'll stay with me

As the greatest love, human kind ever seen

Begging you with one of our songs

Writing maybe the last poem of ours

Let me see you once again, please

#842

#forever&never

One day hero, one day zero

Risked it all to find you

Lost everything along to road

Silence is the thing i'm afraid of

Distance is the one separated us

I'd do anything to be with you

You couldn't just come one more step

Love, you're the prettiest, the most precious

You're the most cruel and the biggest fool

No one would believe what i've done for you

No one would love you more than me

In a bet i waged with God i lost

Nobody won but storytellers of love

#841

The things you couldn't say and the name i couldn't call you...

With you, possible it was
Things i never do, i never ever dare to dream

A dead end i believed
An unknown i recieved 

Wish only your eyes left to me
But i wake up with nightmare tasted dreams

Walking with a question mark in my head
Did she left me, is she a living?

An angel of death betrayed me
But why, why she said she ever loved me?

#840

Love comes, give in or give up!

Little pieces of my heart everywhere

To complete it like a puzzle

I need help, someone, a guide

I need you

 Yet you're far far away

Physically, mentally and temporally

I need you

To not to regret every step i take

To not to die slowly in every breathe i take

I need you

To pick up your phone and talk to me

To be on a plane, headed to m & e

#839

Matter of life and death

Felt like i cried all night

Yet i am without any tears

Again and again i thought about us

Yet i can't figure us out

Maybe our dreams is a distant memory

That we will never reach out

With all the things you said and not do
In flames, a sinking ship waiting you

#838

Stars within the dark

If i could travel in time
If i could take back precious years of mine
Knowing already todays losses and pain
With all disappointments and heartbreaks
I think with you
I believe when it comes to you
I'd do it all over again
A minute with you is worth years of suffering
A smile of yours worth all my tears
Wish i could turn back time
And
Do it all over again

#837

Burnout

 Same words used thousand of times
Ran out of every unique rhyme
Same feelings chasing the shadow of mine
All the same i say instead of not fine
Devastated, hopeless and still alive
Why, why, why?
You can't be mine
You won't surrender to love?
Maybe, you'll stay forever on the line

#836

Stargazing

Windy sunset on a hill named after you

Standing by a tree you are, gazing at the horizon

A hidden star, slightly shining for so long

Waiting for to be noticed

Wish it was not so far away

Wish it was the glow in your eyes

Let that lonely star guide your soul, in this endless night

I'll will be always in your sky

 

#835

Uncrossed lives

No wonder what i try to see

In an hourglass i stare

In future i wanna be

Dwelling in old days, old sayings

Missing now in worries

All i have a destination i can't go

A future i can't reach

My mind is fixated to a girl i'll never see

Is like obsession, the twin sister of love

I wish i could give up, move on and let go

My love is so immense, bigger than everything in my world

If i lose you, if love dies, my heart will stop beating

Feels like, there'll be no light, no sound, not even a sign of life

#834

Unheard reproach vs sorrow unseen

I'd rather had endless nights than a bright sky, if you were with me

I'd rather be in hell than heaven, if you were mine

You left me with uncertainty

28 days now

Not even a word, not even a hi back

Are you there?

Are you alive and well?

You're in a fight of a lifetime

I see

Isn't there a room for a shoulder to cry?

Isn't there a chance for someone to hold you in the dark?

Apparently not

You fight alone, you smile and live alone

And

I don't get it, what i am for?

If you don't need me, why you kept me around?

I'm lost

Without you, i'm lost

#833 

Space Love Continuum

 

 

Night is long

For every lover, in trouble

Night is long, will my heart suffer?

Indeed, hope not forever

In every breath i take

In every step i make

You, hidden in my very soul

Me, lost in your memories

Not able to sleep, as i said, night is long

Not able to wake up, dreaming you in a dream

 

#832

Unknown

Keeping for myself this time

All of my sorrow inside

Locked in my heart

All of my tears at night

Deep down --- i am lost

Like every dream sunk

You & i

Silent on both sides

A lot to lose and miles to go

#831

Sessiz / Silent

Gece uzun, yıldızlar sahipsiz

Karanlık sokaklarda yürüyorum

Her adımımda durarak, sendeleyerek, düşercesine

Her şey bir hiç

Yok, yok olmalı sadece

Kalbim buz tutmuş, parçalanmayı bekliyor

Tatsız lokmalar, yalnız sofralarda

Yitik, bitik ve mutsuzum

Alışmak lazım mutsuzluğa, sensizliğe ve ölüme

Alamayacağım zaferler, yaşayamayacağım hayatlar var
Ve

Alışmam lazım sensiz nefes alıp vermeye

#830

Night is long, stars unclaimed

I am walking in dark streets

I stumble, pause, likely to fall in my every step

Everything becomes nothing

One should not exist, one should be destroyed

My heart is frozen, waiting to be crushed into pieces

Ruined, exhausted and unhappy i am

Should get used to unhappiness, being without you and to death itself

There are victories i can't take, there are lives i can't live

I should get used to breath in and out, without you

Random letters

Got on the street in the morning

While light rays booming behind the clouds

Felt something different, strange to me for years

A real feeling this time, a pure sorrow

Did what i have to do

Go to work, got something to eat, stayed at night

In the mean time, i surrendered to the night

Nothing gave me pleasure

Everything became non sense all of a sudden

I stopped in a night lane

Thought about you and i

Just passed a green light because i have to

I was thinking you and i

Held myself not to rebel against the God

It was hard not to

Nobody should take you from me

After this moment, i can't live without you

Not until i catch you

Not until i kiss you

A gentle kiss, a look in to your eyes, a hand touch i lack

In the middle of my life, i repent, i pray

All words of mine, to be close to another one

All dreams of mine, to get away from what is happening right now

Every color in me blending

My desire, to be every tone of purple, violet, lavender and lilac

Everything you love i want to become

Colors are fading, it's coming

Night with darkness

Hitting me in my every step

It's not the time

Not yet

Meet me in a rainy day with your smile

Tell me you love me with your eyes only

I won't rebel to the God

God will save you and us

One day, my dear, it'll be only you and i

Against all odds

Against everything life can offer and take

It'll be you and i

Cause i loved you

Because simply, deeply and silently, i love you

#829

Sick

Been thinking all day
You...
Sick for days
And
I don't know even how bad
Worse
I am not there to hold you
Not on watch beside you
I couldn't be there
While you're walking to the hospital
And
It tears me down
All i can do is nothing
Besides
Thinking, praying and just nothing

#828

Love is built not found

Wish i could be mad at you

At least once

Wish i could stay upset on you

Only for some time

Need you, love you, want you more

Kept praying one day that i'm all yours

Everything changes in a blink of an eye

No more boundaries, no more limits, distance no more

We won't be apart "in a dream" we will live in

A dream we "built" together

A shelter in the rain, like a guide in a maze

It's called "true love" and i found mine

#827

Rather something else

Rather something else
Than your stunning beauty
Than your smile, your dazzling eyes

Love in it's purity
Endless loyalty

Cheerful chit-chats, your joy of life
Glimpsing behind the clouds

We're meant to be
We're in the same frequency

In this life and the next
You complete me

Beneath the surface
Beyond the stars
My love is rather something else

#826

Knot

My tears raining over here

Without you as always

You're busy and i'm broke
Tell me, how it's gonna work?

Found you in dreams like before
Settled for a dream at night and cried

Everything is changing somehow
Getting complicated more and more

Tied and free one can be?
Happy and miserable one can feel?

Roads separate us instead of connecting
Is love dying instead of resurrecting

A dream lived in every breathe you're
An absence i felt everyday you're

#825

My path

Let's dream tonight

So what?

Two rings tie one another

Like day and night always together

Empty streets makes sense now

Cause there's another world

Not far yet in the future

Happiness is alive, like it has no end

You and i are meant to be

In heaven or in hell

You're my faith and my destiny

#824